Mike's Journal
DAY 16
DATE: Wednesday, September 6, 2012
TIME: 11:31pm
A. OPENING THOUGHTS/OBSERVATIONS:
Final dress rehearsal and preview audience tonight. Noticed significant changes in my body. Received wonderful feedback about both the performance and physical appearance. Was in a rush with all the activity so diet definitely was off a bit. Opening night tomorrow should be very exciting.
I am noticing in my workouts that I can start each new intention at a higher emotion. Which means this Interactive Emotional Exercise work helps me to continuously feel good about my intentions on a day-to-day basis. For example, when I start with “Developing Content for This Book” with motivations of fear, it’s easier to start my next intention (I.e. “Rich Spiritual Life”) at a higher emotion like Clarity. It just goes to show it truly is all connected and we are where we choose to be.
Now more than ever I’m experiencing those transcendent moments during my stage performances. Emotion is coming out with little to no effort. I recognize that life is like a stage play; being human is a performance. Being authentic, being real, is of Source. All emotion is coming easily, both "positive" that I use for real life and the "negative" which I use for my character. Not only am I perfecting the illusion of my body, but this Quest is making me a more authentic actor - which is simply being more authentic.
Staying with A Course in Miracles in spite of the whirlwinds. Trying to wrap my mind around the idea that all minds are connected, both with one another and with Source. Giving up the ego is to acknowledge that our mind is already part of God’s thoughts and is therefore very holy.
B. DREAM ENTRY:
Dreamed I was Superman trying to rescue others from a building I knew was going to collapse. My superpowers couldn’t get anyone out of the building. My “Sidekick” (The Holy Spirit) set off an explosion that damaged the building but strategically didn’t injure any people. This scared the occupants into leaving before the real blast leveled the building to the ground which would have killed all the inhabitants. I stayed in the destroyed structure because, well, I was Superman and it didn’t hurt me while I made sure everyone was out. Every one did escape unscathed.
I think this means the Holy Spirit can create illusions as much as the ego. My work, writing, and training might prepare others for what’s to come. But I don’t have any power over the miracles in other person’s life until the Holy Spirit intervenes. That can only come through the choice to have Vision. Structures (the body?) will be destroyed but everyone will always and forever be safe if they heed the Holy Spirit’s very powerful performance of an illusion within the ego's illusion.
C. The Emotional Exercises are now focused on calibrations for each one of your intentions. Between sets you will move up on the emotional scale for each intention until satisfied with what you need to do in order to move forward in making each intention a reality. (Hint: By the time you work with "Willingness" or "Determination" you should be taking some sort of action toward the fulfillment of your Quest.)
Example: Exercise 1 - Chest Press
After Set 1: Desire (Intention - Increased Confidence)
I want change in how I communicate to people.
I want a better body.
I want people to turn their heads when I walk in a room.
After Set 2: Anger
I’m angry that people sometimes don’t understand me.
I’m angry that I see my flaws in the mirror.
I’m angry that I’m less than perfect.
***
The Workout
Focus on Super Sets with Legs
1. Exercise 1: Barbell Squats with Left Leg Lunges
4 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Trust)
Free association with emotion.
(a) Based on today's feedback, I trust the workouts made a difference.
I trust a calm mind and that is what I seek in this moment.
I trust in what’s real. When my performance comes from a real place it allows me to have confidence.
I trust in what my life represents.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Trust into Willingness/Determination)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) I willing to work out today.
I’m determined to end today with feelings of Clarity, Love, Joy, and Peace.
I’m willing to meditate on and acknowledge what is real in my thoughts.
I’m willing to ask others to communicate. No one else has to understand or believe as I do. I only seek to communicate with other truth seekers.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Willingness/Determination into Acceptance/Forgiveness)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) I accept that my body is putting out more work with through these Supersets.
I forgive myself for choosing ego in these moments where I’ve yet to see Clarity, Love, Joy, and Peace which are the emotions that serve as the (S)source of all confidence.
I accept that my reality (the reality that my mind is part of Source) is intended for me and everyone who chooses it. I accept that I can offer this to anyone who wants to consider it. I accept that it is also mine to receive from my brother/sister.
I accept that I have a desire to communicate, not to preach. I accept that my confidence has been lessened due to a desire to not be seen as a “preacher”.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Acceptance/Forgiveness into Clarity)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) I’m clear that my body is beginning to reflect my spiritual growth.
I’m clear that my judgments are coming to light.
I am clear about correcting my vision while forgiving my own judgments about others.
I’m clear that I’m ready to communicate if anyone chooses to engage.
2. Exercise 2: Machine Leg Press with Right Leg Lunges
4 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Clarity into Love)
Free association with emotion.
(a) I love my body as it is, and I see what is admirable.
I love others and find something to appreciate about a person instead of something to judge.
I love having the wisdom to feel in conjunction with the intelligence to think.
I love sharing and communicating.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Love into Joy)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Joy is freeing myself from concerns about the body.
Joy is connecting with others in very meaningful ways.
Joy is where wisdom leads.
Joy is growth through the mutual benefit of life experiences with others.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Joy into Peace)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Peace is the confidence that comes from knowing there already is a state of perfection and it exists now - and no where else.
Peace is seeing past anything competitive and judgmental; seeing others as “You” on another page of the story.
Peace is constant, an unchanging state of grace. It bypasses conscious thought and touches unconscious bliss.
Peace is One.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Peace into Enlightenment)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) Enlightenment knows confidence is a human need, no longer a spiritual one.
Enlightenment is the merging of two seeming opposites.
Enlightenment is the only thing that does exist.
Enlightenment was both Void and Oneness before such states of being were conceived.
(SWITCHING INTENTIONS. I went as far up the emotional scale as I wish to go on this one.)
3. Exercise 3: Leg Extension with Side Low Lunges
3 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Trust)
Free association with emotion.
(a) I trust that the need to be a “new person” has been reexamined.
I trust that being a new person was really another way of saying that I wanted to consistently tap more into my “Source-mindedness”.
I trust that I’ve already accomplished this on the inside.
I trust that the “outside” will somehow reflect the changes on the inside.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Trust into Willingness/Determination)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) I am willing to acknowledge that this “new person” already exists; I just need to make an effort see him.
I am willing to continue my new spiritual practices every day from A Course in Miracles. This is a new habit which makes me a “new person” by virtue of practicing and embedding the new habit.
I am determined to say something honest today as a result of my new thought patterns.
I am determined to give praise and thanks for the blessings both “great” and “small” that come to me.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Willingness/Determination into Acceptance/Forgiveness)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) I forgive the previous missed opportunity for choosing love and appreciation and accept this moment to choose love and appreciation.
I accept that with each meditation I can choose to take the exercise seriously and thoughtfully.
I forgive my fear about speaking a beautiful truth to someone next to me.
I forgive my blindness in missing the small blessings that come to me in every moment.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Acceptance/Forgiveness into Clarity)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) I’m clear that choosing love is simple. All One had to do is let go of fear.
I’m clear that I’ve never been more spiritually conscious than I have been in these past few days.
I’m clear that I don’t have to “do” anything other than feel compassion for my brother/sister. The words and deeds will flow naturally.
I’m clear that I am so blessed. That thought immediately makes me a “new person”, a person willing to accept that he is blessed.
4. Exercise 4: Prone Leg Curls with Dumbbell Box Squats
3 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Clarity into Love)
Free association with emotion.
(a) I love that I’ve chosen Love.
I love that I’m calmer and more relaxed.
I love that I can communicate better, more clearly, and more effectively like this.
I love the blessings that are here now, especially the ones which I can share.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Love into Joy)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Joy is transcendent of “I”.
Joy is the choice of love extended.
Joy is effortless communication.
Joy is giving.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Joy into Peace)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Peace defines this new person.
Peace is having no more need to think, only to know.
Peace is seeing without looking, accomplishing without doing.
Peace is here and no where else.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Peace into Enlightenment)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) Enlightenment can’t be written about right now.
5. Exercise 5: Bird Dogs with Planks
3 Sets of 12/1 Minute Hold Reps
Identify Intention: Review all intentions, listing today’s thoughts about each.
Free association with emotion.
(a) Content For This Book: The reader will come with their own "Life" content. My content is of little use unless someone is on a similar path. I do believe the content a reader comes to this book with will serve well enough.
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Rich Spiritual Life: My story is filled with so many spiritual thoughts which will probably mean little to the uninitiated. What matters is that my spiritual awareness has grown exponentially in these last 16 days. This book is to serve others through their own experiences. My journal is for me and to simply point out to another HOW to use this journal.
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Increase Confidence: My confidence is now based on the love I hold in my heart in this moment. Total confidence is never having anything to prove, only to communicate about peace and well-being.
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) New Person in 30 Days: I choose to be born again right now.
6. Exercise 6: Abs - Crunch with Stability Ball/Leg Raise on Ball
3 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: Identify and Review All Intentions and Emotion You're Currently Feeling
Free association with emotion.
(a) Rich Spiritual Life: I feel clear that every day, every moment comes back to accomplishing this reality. (Clarity)
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Content For This Book: I’m feeling clear that the content of this book is in actually doing the exercises not just reading about them. (Willingness/Determination)
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Increased Confidence: I accept myself for who I am physically, emotionally, intellectually, and spiritually. This is and will forever always be enough. (Acceptance/Forgiveness)
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) New Person in 30 Days: I’m always this “new person”, or spiritual person I sought to be, simply by moving up these emotions. (Peace)
DIET JOURNAL: (log in any foods you consumed for the day)
Egg White Omelet with Crab
Potatoes
English Muffin
Protein Shake
ADDITIONAL JOURNAL ENTRIES:
Click Here to return to Chapter 10.
DATE: Wednesday, September 6, 2012
TIME: 11:31pm
A. OPENING THOUGHTS/OBSERVATIONS:
Final dress rehearsal and preview audience tonight. Noticed significant changes in my body. Received wonderful feedback about both the performance and physical appearance. Was in a rush with all the activity so diet definitely was off a bit. Opening night tomorrow should be very exciting.
I am noticing in my workouts that I can start each new intention at a higher emotion. Which means this Interactive Emotional Exercise work helps me to continuously feel good about my intentions on a day-to-day basis. For example, when I start with “Developing Content for This Book” with motivations of fear, it’s easier to start my next intention (I.e. “Rich Spiritual Life”) at a higher emotion like Clarity. It just goes to show it truly is all connected and we are where we choose to be.
Now more than ever I’m experiencing those transcendent moments during my stage performances. Emotion is coming out with little to no effort. I recognize that life is like a stage play; being human is a performance. Being authentic, being real, is of Source. All emotion is coming easily, both "positive" that I use for real life and the "negative" which I use for my character. Not only am I perfecting the illusion of my body, but this Quest is making me a more authentic actor - which is simply being more authentic.
Staying with A Course in Miracles in spite of the whirlwinds. Trying to wrap my mind around the idea that all minds are connected, both with one another and with Source. Giving up the ego is to acknowledge that our mind is already part of God’s thoughts and is therefore very holy.
B. DREAM ENTRY:
Dreamed I was Superman trying to rescue others from a building I knew was going to collapse. My superpowers couldn’t get anyone out of the building. My “Sidekick” (The Holy Spirit) set off an explosion that damaged the building but strategically didn’t injure any people. This scared the occupants into leaving before the real blast leveled the building to the ground which would have killed all the inhabitants. I stayed in the destroyed structure because, well, I was Superman and it didn’t hurt me while I made sure everyone was out. Every one did escape unscathed.
I think this means the Holy Spirit can create illusions as much as the ego. My work, writing, and training might prepare others for what’s to come. But I don’t have any power over the miracles in other person’s life until the Holy Spirit intervenes. That can only come through the choice to have Vision. Structures (the body?) will be destroyed but everyone will always and forever be safe if they heed the Holy Spirit’s very powerful performance of an illusion within the ego's illusion.
C. The Emotional Exercises are now focused on calibrations for each one of your intentions. Between sets you will move up on the emotional scale for each intention until satisfied with what you need to do in order to move forward in making each intention a reality. (Hint: By the time you work with "Willingness" or "Determination" you should be taking some sort of action toward the fulfillment of your Quest.)
Example: Exercise 1 - Chest Press
After Set 1: Desire (Intention - Increased Confidence)
I want change in how I communicate to people.
I want a better body.
I want people to turn their heads when I walk in a room.
After Set 2: Anger
I’m angry that people sometimes don’t understand me.
I’m angry that I see my flaws in the mirror.
I’m angry that I’m less than perfect.
***
The Workout
Focus on Super Sets with Legs
1. Exercise 1: Barbell Squats with Left Leg Lunges
4 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Trust)
Free association with emotion.
(a) Based on today's feedback, I trust the workouts made a difference.
I trust a calm mind and that is what I seek in this moment.
I trust in what’s real. When my performance comes from a real place it allows me to have confidence.
I trust in what my life represents.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Trust into Willingness/Determination)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) I willing to work out today.
I’m determined to end today with feelings of Clarity, Love, Joy, and Peace.
I’m willing to meditate on and acknowledge what is real in my thoughts.
I’m willing to ask others to communicate. No one else has to understand or believe as I do. I only seek to communicate with other truth seekers.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Willingness/Determination into Acceptance/Forgiveness)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) I accept that my body is putting out more work with through these Supersets.
I forgive myself for choosing ego in these moments where I’ve yet to see Clarity, Love, Joy, and Peace which are the emotions that serve as the (S)source of all confidence.
I accept that my reality (the reality that my mind is part of Source) is intended for me and everyone who chooses it. I accept that I can offer this to anyone who wants to consider it. I accept that it is also mine to receive from my brother/sister.
I accept that I have a desire to communicate, not to preach. I accept that my confidence has been lessened due to a desire to not be seen as a “preacher”.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Acceptance/Forgiveness into Clarity)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) I’m clear that my body is beginning to reflect my spiritual growth.
I’m clear that my judgments are coming to light.
I am clear about correcting my vision while forgiving my own judgments about others.
I’m clear that I’m ready to communicate if anyone chooses to engage.
2. Exercise 2: Machine Leg Press with Right Leg Lunges
4 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Clarity into Love)
Free association with emotion.
(a) I love my body as it is, and I see what is admirable.
I love others and find something to appreciate about a person instead of something to judge.
I love having the wisdom to feel in conjunction with the intelligence to think.
I love sharing and communicating.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Love into Joy)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Joy is freeing myself from concerns about the body.
Joy is connecting with others in very meaningful ways.
Joy is where wisdom leads.
Joy is growth through the mutual benefit of life experiences with others.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Joy into Peace)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Peace is the confidence that comes from knowing there already is a state of perfection and it exists now - and no where else.
Peace is seeing past anything competitive and judgmental; seeing others as “You” on another page of the story.
Peace is constant, an unchanging state of grace. It bypasses conscious thought and touches unconscious bliss.
Peace is One.
Identify Intention: Increased Confidence (Peace into Enlightenment)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) Enlightenment knows confidence is a human need, no longer a spiritual one.
Enlightenment is the merging of two seeming opposites.
Enlightenment is the only thing that does exist.
Enlightenment was both Void and Oneness before such states of being were conceived.
(SWITCHING INTENTIONS. I went as far up the emotional scale as I wish to go on this one.)
3. Exercise 3: Leg Extension with Side Low Lunges
3 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Trust)
Free association with emotion.
(a) I trust that the need to be a “new person” has been reexamined.
I trust that being a new person was really another way of saying that I wanted to consistently tap more into my “Source-mindedness”.
I trust that I’ve already accomplished this on the inside.
I trust that the “outside” will somehow reflect the changes on the inside.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Trust into Willingness/Determination)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) I am willing to acknowledge that this “new person” already exists; I just need to make an effort see him.
I am willing to continue my new spiritual practices every day from A Course in Miracles. This is a new habit which makes me a “new person” by virtue of practicing and embedding the new habit.
I am determined to say something honest today as a result of my new thought patterns.
I am determined to give praise and thanks for the blessings both “great” and “small” that come to me.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Willingness/Determination into Acceptance/Forgiveness)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) I forgive the previous missed opportunity for choosing love and appreciation and accept this moment to choose love and appreciation.
I accept that with each meditation I can choose to take the exercise seriously and thoughtfully.
I forgive my fear about speaking a beautiful truth to someone next to me.
I forgive my blindness in missing the small blessings that come to me in every moment.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Acceptance/Forgiveness into Clarity)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) I’m clear that choosing love is simple. All One had to do is let go of fear.
I’m clear that I’ve never been more spiritually conscious than I have been in these past few days.
I’m clear that I don’t have to “do” anything other than feel compassion for my brother/sister. The words and deeds will flow naturally.
I’m clear that I am so blessed. That thought immediately makes me a “new person”, a person willing to accept that he is blessed.
4. Exercise 4: Prone Leg Curls with Dumbbell Box Squats
3 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Clarity into Love)
Free association with emotion.
(a) I love that I’ve chosen Love.
I love that I’m calmer and more relaxed.
I love that I can communicate better, more clearly, and more effectively like this.
I love the blessings that are here now, especially the ones which I can share.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Love into Joy)
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Joy is transcendent of “I”.
Joy is the choice of love extended.
Joy is effortless communication.
Joy is giving.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Joy into Peace)
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Peace defines this new person.
Peace is having no more need to think, only to know.
Peace is seeing without looking, accomplishing without doing.
Peace is here and no where else.
Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Peace into Enlightenment)
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) Enlightenment can’t be written about right now.
5. Exercise 5: Bird Dogs with Planks
3 Sets of 12/1 Minute Hold Reps
Identify Intention: Review all intentions, listing today’s thoughts about each.
Free association with emotion.
(a) Content For This Book: The reader will come with their own "Life" content. My content is of little use unless someone is on a similar path. I do believe the content a reader comes to this book with will serve well enough.
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Rich Spiritual Life: My story is filled with so many spiritual thoughts which will probably mean little to the uninitiated. What matters is that my spiritual awareness has grown exponentially in these last 16 days. This book is to serve others through their own experiences. My journal is for me and to simply point out to another HOW to use this journal.
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Increase Confidence: My confidence is now based on the love I hold in my heart in this moment. Total confidence is never having anything to prove, only to communicate about peace and well-being.
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) New Person in 30 Days: I choose to be born again right now.
6. Exercise 6: Abs - Crunch with Stability Ball/Leg Raise on Ball
3 Sets of 12 Reps
Identify Intention: Identify and Review All Intentions and Emotion You're Currently Feeling
Free association with emotion.
(a) Rich Spiritual Life: I feel clear that every day, every moment comes back to accomplishing this reality. (Clarity)
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 2: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention..
(b) Content For This Book: I’m feeling clear that the content of this book is in actually doing the exercises not just reading about them. (Willingness/Determination)
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 3: Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(c) Increased Confidence: I accept myself for who I am physically, emotionally, intellectually, and spiritually. This is and will forever always be enough. (Acceptance/Forgiveness)
Identify Intention: ______________________________
After Set 4 (or between sets): Continue free association with next emotion or go to next intention.
(d) New Person in 30 Days: I’m always this “new person”, or spiritual person I sought to be, simply by moving up these emotions. (Peace)
DIET JOURNAL: (log in any foods you consumed for the day)
Egg White Omelet with Crab
Potatoes
English Muffin
Protein Shake
ADDITIONAL JOURNAL ENTRIES:
Click Here to return to Chapter 10.
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