DAY 20 (Mike's Journal)

Mike's Journal
DAY 20

DATE: Sunday, September 10, 2012
TIME: 8:57 pm

A. OPENING THOUGHTS/OBSERVATIONS:

It’s frustrating that I don’t have anything of real value to add to this entry. I keep writing, working out, and meditate every day. That’s really all I have to say. What’s the point of writing every day, anyway? I know it has something to do with keeping the channel of the heart open. I think I’m getting more frustrated by the minute holding on to this goal and these intentions. I want to work more, make money, and start a family. I’m outgrowing this Quest...but not the quest process. I’m having trouble seeing the point in writing a book that no one will probably relate to. Okay, so it really is a “Dark Night” moment.

I think I want to focus today’s See/Hear/Feel exercises on my spiritual life and reconnect to why I’m really doing this. My original intention was just to use these skills to work out and make some new discoveries. Maybe my “Spiritual Life” intention will bring me back to this original intention.

B. DREAM ENTRY:
 
No dreams to report today. I feel like connection from my higher Self has been temporarily cut off which is why I’m struggling. I’m ready to complete my emotional commitment to this Quest and start seeing results. Physical results from working out and being mindful of my diet are not enough, I want to truly become a “New Person”.

C. You can either continue with OPTION # 1 or today you can do OPTION # 2.

OPTION # 2 

Emotional Calibrations with See/Hear/Feel is very similar to the exercises from Chapter 10: Plot Twists.

Between each exercise, instead of doing the "Free Association" with each emotion, you will make See/Hear/Feel statements that support your perception of the emotion you feel about each intention.

Here's an example:

Identify Intention: Rich Spiritual Life (Desire)

After Set 1: Make “I see” statements (or See/Hear/Feel statements with Emotional Calibrations.)

(a) I see myself leaving this world permanently.
I hear the voice of God telling me that I’m done here.
I feel a "greedy" urge to have power over my own destiny!

After Set 2: Make “I hear” statements (or See/Hear/Feel statements with Emotional Calibrations.)

Desire into Anger

(b) I see fire in my head because this is not as easy as I want it to be today.
I hear good advice bouncing off my skull that I’m too angry to listen to at the moment.
I feel frustrated that my prayers for a secure future are not being answered.

After Set 3: Make “I feel” statements (or See/Hear/Feel statements with Emotional Calibrations.).

Anger into Pride

(c) I see my journal and it has some very useful dreams that have been helpful.
I hear God communicating His faith in me.
I feel satisfied in response to pausing and asking for help.

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The Workout

Focus on Supersets: Chest, Triceps, Abs


1. Exercise 1: Bench Press with Push Ups (21's)

4 Sets of 12/21 Reps

Identify Intention: Spiritual Life (Current Emotion Identified: Apathy)

After Set 1: Make “I see” statements. (If OPTION # 2, make See/Hear/Feel statements according to the emotion experienced.)

(a) I see Nothing.
I hear Nothing.
I feel Nothing.

After Set 2: Make “I hear” statements. (If Option # 2, continue moving up the emotional scale with See/Hear/Feel statements.)

(b) Apathy into Grief: I see people who are ignorant of spiritual practice and beliefs.
I hear idle chatter about meaningless things.
I feel a loss over friendships that used to have a deep, spiritual meaning to me.

After Set 3: Make “I feel” statements.

(c) Grief into Fear: I see my life in an endless repeating loop of non-events.
I hear the sound of silence in response to the heartfelt questions I’m asking.
I feel fear in my heart in knowing that I want to give up this Quest.


2. Exercise 2: Smith Incline Press with Dumbbell Incline Flies (21's)

4 Sets of 12/21 Reps

Identify Intention: Rich Spiritual Life (Fear into Desire)

After Set 1: Make “I see” statements. (If OPTION # 2, make See/Hear/Feel statements according to the emotion experienced.)

(a) I see myself leaving this world permanently.
I hear the voice of God telling me that I’m done here.
I feel greedy in wanting power over my own destiny!

After Set 2: Make “I hear” statements. (If Option # 2, continue moving up the emotional scale with See/Hear/Feel statements.)

(b) Desire into Anger: I see fire in my head because this is not as easy as I want it to be today.
I hear good advice bouncing off my skull that I’m too angry to listen to at the moment.
I feel frustrated that my prayers for a secure future are not being answered.


After Set 3: Make "I feel" statements.

(c) Anger into Pride: I see my journal and it has some very useful dreams that have been helpful.
I hear God communicating His faith in me.
I feel satisfied in response to pausing and asking for help.


3. Exercise 3: Cable Flies with Underhand Dumbbell Flies

3 Sets of 12 Reps

Identify Intention: Rich Spiritual Life (Pride into Courage)

After Set 1: Make “I see” statements. (If OPTION # 2, make See/Hear/Feel statements according to the emotion experienced.)

(a) I see myself finishing this Quest in order to start a new one.
I hear myself communicating the thoughts which I believe to be divinely inspired to someone else. In other words, there are things said at precisely the right moment to enable a healing.
I feel empowered knowing I pulled myself out of Apathy today.

After Set 2: Make “I hear” statements. (If Option # 2, continue moving up the emotional scale with See/Hear/Feel statements.)

(b) Courage into Trust: I see my life as truly blessed and abundant.
I hear a new silence which assures me that my strength is mastered.
I feel comfortable with this moment.


After Set 3: Make “I feel” statements.

(c) Trust into Willingness/Determination: I see myself writing because it helps me.
I hear the typing of my fingers on the keyboard as I share insights from my reading, writing, and past experiences.
I feel a motivation to be okay with an “empty” feeling. I know it’s a space that is ready to be filled with inspiration.


4. Exercise 4: Dips with Machine Flies

4 Sets of 15 Reps

Identify Intention: Rich Spiritual Life (Willingness/Determination into Acceptance/Forgiveness)

After Set 1: Make “I see” statements. (If OPTION # 2, make See/Hear/Feel statements according to the emotion experienced.)

(a)  I see myself living in a constant state of forgiveness - which has nothing to do with evil or misdeeds.
I hear everyone’s voice as meaningful.
I feel a release knowing I invited truth to come back to me.

After Set 2: Make “I hear” statements. (If Option # 2, continue moving up the emotional scale with See/Hear/Feel statements.)

(b) Acceptance/Forgiveness into Clarity: I see life exactly as it is and what I choose to bring to it.
I hear Source’s voice as my own expression.
I feel a purity of spirit that resonates through my body.

After Set 3: Make “I feel” statements.

(c) Clarity into Love: I see reality in front of me, and can find something to appreciate about every aspect of Creation that is in "my" here and now.
I hear all the background noise as God’s voice telling me I’ve chosen wisely.
I feel emotionally expansive in my heart.


5. Exercise 5: Skull Crushers with Rope Triceps Push Down

3 Sets of 12 Reps

Identify Intention: Rich Spiritual Life (Love into Joy)

After Set 1: Make “I see” statements. (If OPTION # 2, make See/Hear/Feel statements according to the emotion experienced.)

(a) I see, hear and feel the same things that I did back at “Love” except this feeling expands and then extends to others.

After Set 2: Make “I hear” statements. (If Option # 2, continue moving up the emotional scale with See/Hear/Feel statements.)

(b) Love into Peace: I see light.
I hear wisdom.
I feel peace.

After Set 3: Make “I feel” statements.

(c) Enlightenment means "I think, therefore I am".


6. Exercise 6: Side Plank Crunches with V-Ups

3 Sets of 12/15 Reps

Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Trust)

After Set 1: Make “I see” statements. (If OPTION # 2, make See/Hear/Feel statements according to the emotion experienced.)

(a) I see the changes in my body and I’m happy with the changes.
I hear myself saying things that bear the quality of truth.
I feel content.

After Set 2: Make “I hear” statements. (If Option # 2, continue moving up the emotional scale with See/Hear/Feel statements.)

(b) Trust into Willingness/Determination: I see more people in my circle of influence.
I hear new people making contact with me.
I feel motivated.

After Set 3: Make “I feel” statements.

(c) Willingness/Determination into Acceptance/Forgiveness: I see the "old person" that I "was" as a limitation of my ego. And I see the ego’s influence is shrinking.
I "hear" my sights and "see" my voice. This represents a merging of Oneness of all my thoughts with God’s.
I feel a glowing sensation.

(I'll finish this line of thought in the "ADDITIONAL ENTRIES" section.)

DIET JOURNAL: (log in any foods you consumed for the day)

Egg White Sandwich/Whole Grain
Protein Shake
Grilled Chicken Wrap
Peanut Butter Wrap


ADDITIONAL JOURNAL ENTRIES:

I continued my See/Hear/Feel calibrations.

Identify Intention: New Person in 30 Days (Clarity)

(a) I see that sights, sounds, and feelings are all expressions of either the ego or the mind/soul.
I hear a crescendo of these sights, sounds, and feelings merging together.
I feel this as being true.
 
Clarity into Love

(b) I see all sights, sounds, and feelings as an expression of Love. That I am One with my Creator.
I hear the sounds of motion.
I feel subtle differences in my body.

Love into Joy

(c) I see light as my mind is calm and exuberant.
I hear sounds but not necessarily through my body’s ears.
I feel complete.

Joy into Peace

(d) I see, hear, and feel with a peaceful mind, using my body simply to communicate.

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